I Think I Scare the Freshmen...

Hey Guys,

I was talking to my mom on the phone the other day, and I was telling her something that I've noticed since I've been back. I think I scare the freshmen in the conservatory. Not in an "AHHH!!!" terrified kind of way, but more like a "WTF is going on with that girl?" kind of way. I mean, I've got this super, super short haircut, triple-pierced ears, and I'm generally either wearing a big faux-fur coat my mom gave me for Christmas or a black wool trench coat and some kind of crazy hat. Also, usually I'm wearing giant earrings that are down to my shoulders. AND I wasn't around last semester. AND people still get excited every time they see me - professors, kids, accompanists - people are constantly shrieking & hugging me when I walk down the hall (which, by the way, is kind of nice haha). So, basically, I think I'm really freaking the freshmen out. Oh, well...

Anyway, I've been cooking LOTS of really good food for myself - I'm trying not to eat/buy anything processed... as much fresh, organic food as I can get, and I'm trying to make a lot of it myself at home instead of eating as often as I used to, and lots and lots of fruit and iced green tea. I want to try to make sure I've gotten ALL of the chemicals out of my body before I let myself eat too much junk again!

Also, I've been noticing that some of my arm hairs are doing weird things... like... getting really long & curly?!?!? I'm guessing those are the ones that clung to life during my treatments so they're all weird. I'm glad they're blonde & hoping they'll fall out and be normal, because if they keep growing like this it'll be really bizarre. My leg skin seems to be reacting weirdly to having hair again - I've been having to exfoliate my legs A LOT because the hair on my legs keeps growing in just under the top layer of skin, not so much like an ingrown hair, just like it can't quite make it through that last teeny bit. It's really annoying.

Check out my hair! Haha, the back is kind of growing into some weird swoop in the back. I bet it always grew like that but I just could never tell. I also kind of have a little bit of a cowlick on the front right side. Not sure if that was always there, either, but it's popping the front of my hair up in a funny way. I guess this means no bangs for me (not that I'm really disappointed by that). It looks thicker in these pictures than it really it, it's still pretty thin, maybe a little bit thicker, but you can definitely still see my scalp somewhat. Not as thin as I thought it would be, but still not particularly thick. And fuzzy. As fuzzy as 1/2" long hair can be... I kind of like it this short, but I definitely want it to get long enough to see what kind of a curl it has! I'm considering getting a trim over Spring Break in March, but we'll see how much it grows before I make an appointment!

Lots of Love,

Lauren

More Hair, More Hair!

Hey Guys,

It's my third week of school and I'm starting to feel a little better. I went home this past weekend and hung out with some of my friends from my internship last summer - it was REALLY good to see them, I've been missing them a lot while I'm at school. It's been awhile since I've updated, so I wanted to post up some pictures of my hair, which has been growing really well! It's almost long enough to style some way, and it's messy when I wake up in the morning. It's finally gotten thick enough that it looks like a buzz cut (although it's still thinner than it used to be) and it's really soft & kind of fuzzy. I stopped using the Nioxin and started using Herbal Essences shampoo & conditioner for chemically-treated hair (haha) at the recommendation of my mom, who used it when my little brother was growing his hair back from chemo. I think I'm going to make an appointment for Spring Break (about 1.5 months away) to get the gross ends cut off, and maybe it'll even be long enough to get it trimmed up into a style. 

I put up that last picture because Katie & I were trying on my large collection of stretchy headbands since she might be borrowing a diamondy one for her recital. I've decided my hair's still too short for headbands & that this one makes me look like one of those baby girls whose parents put headbands on their bald heads to show that they're girls. Haha...

Also, a belated thanks to my friend Gretchen, who has an amazing pixie cut, for recommending some good short-hair products for whenever I'll need them!

Lots of Love,

Lauren

Cropped Hair Inspiration

Hey Guys,

Here's  a quick hair/scar update - my hair's getting significantly longer and somewhat thicker. Once it finally starts thickening up a lot, I think I'm going to keep it pretty short. I'm really liking how fast I can shower and the fact that I can wear cute hats and big earrings without worrying about messing up my hair or covering up my earrings...

Look how much my scar has faded - you can just barely see it now. The necklace that I wear every day usually falls just over it anyway (I moved it to get a better view)

Finally, I wanted to share this photo with you, courtesy of Garance Doré's street fashion website. I love the haircut!

I have sunglasses & a dress similar to that ( the back isn't so low cut) - too bad I don't live near a beach...

Lots of Love,

Lauren

Whoops...

Hey Guys,

As I mentioned in my last post, I've been having LOTS of anxiety since I got back to school. I can't describe it exactly, but mostly I just feel unsettled a lot of the time, and I feel like I don't belong. I miss my friends in Cincinnati a lot, and I'm hoping to come home next weekend to see everyone.

Yesterday, I had my first appointment with my new counselor at the BW health center, and he's a really nice guy - I think it will help a lot to have someone to talk to, and I hope that the anxiety calms down soon, because it's really frustrating!

I also found a Young Adult support group about 25 minutes away from campus, but I misread the calendar - the meeting was last week, not this week! I had been so excited all week to go to the meeting and get to know some people, but I totally showed up at the wrong time. Hopefully I'll get it right in February!

Classes are going well, the only thing I'm slightly worried about is my piano class - everyone in my class is really talented, and I can barely remember some of the stuff we're studying. Plus, a lot of the class is based on improv, which I'm not very good at at all (mostly because it's hard for me to figure out what notes are in each chord very quickly) but hopefully I'll get better as the semester moves on.

Lots of Love,
Lauren

First Day of School

Hey Guys,

Today was my first day back at BW. I've been having a LOT of anxiety about moving out of my parents' house and back to my apartment in Cleveland (even if it is only four hours away & temporary). I keep having this irrational fear that I'm not going to be able to handle going to class and living on my own, even though I've done it for four years!! I had a little bit of crying on Saturday and Sunday, and a little bit this afternoon. All in all, though, the day went pretty well. I don't have class until noon on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, and not until 10 on Tuesday and Thursday. It's nice to know that I don't have to wake up early every day. One more semester of sleeping in until I (hopefully) find a job.

Tomorrow I'm meeting with my advisor to go over the bit of work I've done on my thesis and to make a plan so I can get the rest of it finished as efficiently as possible. I'm hoping that I've got enough work done on it, but if not, I'm only taking 12 credits this semester, so I'll have plenty of time to work on it. I'm also taking my first (and only) night class - it's a class I've been wanting to take, but it only meets once a week so it's 2.5 hours long!!! Tonight my professor went a half hour over, so I didn't get out til 9:30 - I hope this doesn't happen every week!!

I'm off to bed now, but I hope everyone who's starting school is having a good back-to-class!

Lots of Love,

Lauren

ps check out the hair - it's getting a little thicker!!

Merry Belated Christmas!

Hey Guys,

I keep forgetting to post these pictures of my brothers & I at Christmas! My mom keeps reminding me, but I keep forgetting... anyway, here they are! I think we look pretty good...

Finally, my mom decided to put a rubber snake on my head Christmas morning - it was a gift one of my brothers got (they each got one and later decided to hide them both in my bed...)

Lots of Love,

Lauren

More Hair?

Hey Guys,

So it's getting longer, but I can't tell if it's actually getting thicker...

...Opinions?

Lots of Love,

Lauren

New York Photos

Hey Guys,

Here's a slideshow of most of the pictures I took in New York with Tyler!

Enjoy!



More about the trip will be up later, but I'm doing lots of laundry and packing!

Lots of Love,
Lauren

Happy New Year!

Hey Guys,

More tomorrow (including pictures!) but I wanted to wish everyone a happy new year since I'm back from New York!

Lots of Love,

Lauren